Why Me??

It's been so long since I've posted in my blog. Not because I don't have thoughts but because I'm kinda lazy lately. Or maybe I'm just tired. I never thought I'd get old but all of the sudden I feel old. My body aches I move slower and some days I just wanna wear pjs and lay on my couch. I know we all grow old but lately I've been wondering why me. I want to be young and do the things my 19 year old self could do. I want to be able to work hard and not feel the effects of it for the whole next week. But I realize forever young is just a song and whether I like it or not I'm going to get older. So I've been trying to put together some reasons why getting old is a good thing. I've come up with a few. 

1. My not quite so firm body is better to snuggle and it provides a place of refuge for sick tired grandkids, old dogs, and sometimes even a young dog who thinks her place in my bed is on top of me. 

2. I have gained a lot of knowledge over the years, most of it through bad decisions, mistakes, and wrong turns. I may not be able to tell you what to do, but I can tell you what not to do. 

3. I'm starting to realize that a more simple life is a better life. I don't need so many things as I just need my family and a few good friends. 

4. Afternoon naps are the best. When you're old you're allowed to take them. 

5. My need for doing things perfect or others people's version of perfect is not so strong anymore. When you're old you're just lucky to be doing things. They don't need to be perfect. The fun is in the doing not the end product. 

6. If you're not getting older you're dead. No need to explain that one. 

7. I am learning to allow myself to rest. If the whole to do list doesn't get checked off today there's always tomorrow and if not tomorrow then the next day. 

8. I've learned I can't judge my own success using someone else's measurements. I love to crochet but I'm not that fast at it. One of the reasons is that my memory doesn't remember what I'm doing very well so I really have to think about what I'm doing. I realized as long as I enjoy it why does it matter if I'm not as fast as someone else. 

9. A year ago I started taking an aerial silks class. I'm not big into exercising but this class was a true workout. I've never worked so hard in my life yet I enjoyed it so much. I realized it's never to late to learn something new. 

10. I've learned that when you get old you can wear anything you want. People might stare and they might even point but it no longer bothers me. If I want to wear an amazingly bright Rafiki sweat suit I will and I will love it. When your old you can be eccentric people just blame it on your age. 

11. Another thing that happens with age is you get to speak your mind. You can say what you want and people just shrug and say, well she is old you know. Like being old is a pass of some sort. 

I've decided instead of asking why me I'm going to ask why not me. I've earned it. I deserve to take a nap now and then to slow down. To sit and drink my coke and eat chocolate so I can keep my fluffy self fluffy. I'm not going to quit being me, but I softer, fluffier, brighter, maybe somewhat wilder(in a good way) me. 

Grow old with me the best is yet to come.